‘I don’t even know where I am.’
‘Don’t try and get up.’ He stands, stretches his long arms over his head, but the wet cloth keeps up its gentle momentum over my face. Someone else is here, I realise, but I can’t turn my head to see. ‘You’re at Barn Elms,’ Sidney continues, from the other side of the room. ‘You were damned lucky, Bruno, if the truth be known — one of the servants found you there on the road from Mortlake on his way back from a day off. He didn’t know it was you, of course, but when they brought you back to the house, Frances recognised you. Didn’t you, my dear?’
‘Yes, Philip,’ says a soft, girlish voice from above me. So Sidney’s wife is my nurse. When she lifts the cloth away to rinse it, I catch a glimpse from the corner of my eye; the water she wrings out is bright crimson.
‘You’d probably have died otherwise, I’d wager,’ Sidney says, with his usual matter-of-factness. ‘Did you see him? He hit you with something heavy, but it looks worse than it is, I think. Did he rob you?’
‘Merda!’ I struggle to sit up, pushing the sheet back and almost sending the bowl of water flying; white light splinters behind my eyes but I grip the bedpost until it passes. I have been undressed while I was blacked out, and I am wearing only my shirt and underhose. ‘The papers! Where are they?’
‘What papers? Steady on, you’ll start the bleeding up again.’
‘Who took my doublet off me?’ I force myself unsteadily to my feet, but the room tips and blurs again.
‘I did, you bloody fool,’ Sidney says. ‘I’ve been sitting with you since they brought you in. Walsingham was here a good part of the time too. We thought you might not make it.’ He pauses for a moment. ‘Still,’ he says, his voice brusque again, lest I think him sentimental, ‘should have known it takes more than a bash on the head to do for you. But you had nothing with you. No papers, no purse. Not a thing. And your doublet and shirt were undone.’
I sink back on to the bed, pressing my palm gingerly to my temple.
‘I was bringing them to Walsingham. He must have taken them.’
‘Who?’
I glance at Frances and shake my head minutely and then wince. Even this movement makes it feel as if my brains have come loose in my skull.
‘My dear, go and fetch your father, if he’s free, would you? Tell him Bruno’s speaking again. Most obliged.’ He points imperiously to the door. His wife bobs meekly and leaves with her bowl of bloodied water. The door swings softly shut behind her. ‘She’s terribly obedient, you know,’ Sidney observes with mild interest, as if we were discussing a horse.
The room is furnished with a large comfortable bed hung with white linen curtains, now bespattered with my blood. A tapestry of a hunt scene sways softly on one wall and candles have been lit in sconces on every side to bathe the walls in a cheerful glow, but to my bruised eyes the light appears to swim, like sun through water, and the objects around me sway and waver. I reach up to touch my swollen brow and my legs begin to tremble as I realise, as if taking a second blow, the full weight of what happened. That my pursuer left me alive may have been an oversight on his part; perhaps he thought he had killed me, but it now seems beyond doubt that he is willing to do so.
I have barely begun recounting the events at Dee’s to Sidney when the door crashes to the wall and Walsingham strides into the room, with such a degree of urgency that for a moment I think he means to sweep me into his arms. He stops just short of this, but I can focus enough to see the concern etched in his face, and feel flattered.
‘Make no mistake, Bruno, I shall find the man who did this to you,’ he says, showing me his balled fist before enclosing it softly in his left hand.
‘Or woman,’ I say, and my tongue feels thick in my mouth. Walsingham raises an eyebrow.
‘Really? Explain.’ He nods to Sidney to shut the chamber door.
So I tell him about Jane Dee’s mysterious visitor; about Ned Kelley’s chest, the books and the drawings; I explain about Johanna Kelley’s connection to the Howard family, and how my assailant must have known that I had taken something incriminating from Dee’s house. Walsingham frowns and bites his lip when I tell him the papers have been taken; when I have finished, he draws a hand down the length of his face and nods.
‘If this wife of Kelley’s is stealing food for him, he can’t be far from the place,’ says Sidney, folding his arms. ‘Either he was watching the house or she followed you herself, knowing what you’d found, is my guess.’
‘I wish I could have seen those pictures,’ Walsingham says, with a grimace. ‘First this business with Mary’s ring, then Kelley and this Johanna woman — is Henry Howard really at the heart of all this?’
‘Can’t we find some pretext to arrest him?’ Sidney demands. ‘Perhaps he will be willing to answer questions if he is afraid.’
‘And what pretext do you suggest?’ Walsingham turns on him; it is rare to hear the Principal Secretary raise his voice, and I curse myself again for having lost the papers that might have helped him bring this to a close. ‘We have nothing to charge him with — nothing! And if the queen moves against the Howards without sound evidence, the rest of the Catholic nobles will close ranks against her, which is the last thing we want if there are envoys trying to stir them to armed rebellion. God’s blood!’ He pounds his left palm with his fist, pacing the room like a bear on a chain while Sidney and I watch, tense. ‘I cannot go on protecting John Dee from his own folly!’ he bursts out eventually, as if to himself. ‘Conjuring spirits! He lays himself open to being abused. And if it turns out he has been harbouring a murderer in his house —‘ He rubs his beard, takes a deep breath and turns back to me, attempting to impose his customary self-control. ‘Bruno, what do you make of this so far?’
My head still feels as if it is stuffed with wool; his voice seems to come from somewhere distant, but I gather my ragged thoughts as best I can.
‘Find Ned Kelley,’ is the best I can manage. ‘Henry Howard, Philip Howard, the dead girls — somehow they are all connected, but only Kelley can link them.’
Walsingham looks at me expectantly, but my vision blurs again and I have to lean back against the bedpost.
‘I will send men after Kelley,’ he says, eyeing me carefully. ‘And someone to watch over Jane Dee, make sure she receives no more unwelcome visitors. John has said little, except to swear neither he nor Kelley has any connection with the murders. Now I understand why he doesn’t want to talk about the nature of his relationship with Kelley — but I must question him again about these drawings. And I’ll have this Johanna taken in and questioned while we are about it. Meanwhile you, Bruno, have had a lucky escape, and I blame myself for allowing you to pursue this alone. You need to rest.’
‘I need to get back to the embassy,’ I say, alarmed and standing up too fast. ‘I am under enough suspicion there already — I can’t disappear for a night. What time is it?’
‘Nine,’ Sidney says. ‘You’d better stay here, old friend — you’ll frighten the life out of the ambassador looking like that.’
‘Bruno’s right,’ Walsingham says, stepping closer to examine my wound in the candlelight. ‘His position at Salisbury Court is crucial to us now. I’ll have someone take you back by river. Tell them you were set upon for being foreign.’
‘Wouldn’t be the first time.’ I touch my eye again. My head feels enormous. With some effort, I stand and wait for the seasickness to pass.
‘Bruno.’ Walsingham places his hand on my shoulder, fatherly. ‘You acted with your customary blend of courage and recklessness tonight. Those papers would have been like gold, and I am as distressed as you over their loss. But I would have been more distressed if we had lost you for their sake. From now on, I want you to confine your investigations to Salisbury Court. Keep yourself armed, and if you must make longer journeys or deliver messages, go accompanied. Make use of Fowler — you are there to work together. No gadding about the countryside in the dark trying to do it all alone — capisce?’
I nod, painfully.
‘Good.’ He smiles, but it only lasts an instant. ‘I will arrange a boat, and come with you as far as Whitehall. See if I can persuade Dee to tell me any more.’ He strides to the door, purposeful again, then turns back to me. ‘Do you think there is any truth in it, Bruno? This pursuit of commerce with spirits? It was said in Paris that you knew something of these arts.’
Squinting, I try to focus until I can see his features sharply. His expression is neutral, curious. ‘It is forbidden by every statute of the church,’ I say, eventually. ‘Theirs and yours.’
‘I know it is forbidden, Bruno — I write the laws,’ he says, impatient. ‘This is why no one will admit to it, while the country crawls with these so-called scryers and cunning-men, duping the poor and ignorant. And sometimes the educated,’ he adds, with a wry curl of the lip. ‘But do you believe some men could truly have this gift, to speak with spirits — angels or demons, or whatever you want to call them? Have you ever known such a thing, or are such beliefs only remnants from our benighted past?’ He searches my face, his hand still resting on the door. I can feel Sidney’s eyes on me too, expectant; I know he was drawn to such knowledge when he was a student of Dee’s, but since he assumed his position at court he has kept a politic distance. My poor bruised brain feels ill-equipped for the subtleties such an answer requires.